*smiles*

My heart is moved after a brief perusal through this cobwebbed corner of the internet I adorned with previous passion, ideas, and speculations.

I've not written, shot, manipulated, or created in a long time (thus no recent updates). I thank you all for your support and willingness to read through my former rambles and emotional outcries. I like to hope I'm a much better, much more well put-together woman now.

At nineteen years, I solemnly survey a tortuous and turbulent road at my heels and mourn the regrettable crimes I partook in and the bitterness I readily harbored. I consider my errors substantial, and certainly noted, to keep with me and fashion into most valuable weapons (with which I'll equip myself,) and tackle future adversities. I see a myriad of golden opportunities ahead of me, and I'm exhilarated by the chance to turn past hardships into shadows, cast by a radiance I know I now behold.

Some updates:
- I've taken up Krav Maga; it's affected my body and confidence in a very positive way.
- I've been working with a career counselor and my local transfer resource center to work my way back into a university of choice (I'm interested in UNC, double majoring in Linguistics and an undecided focus Biomedical Sciences).
- I've lost 27 lbs.
- I now have a strong and admirable female Mentor for guidance
- I am celebrating my seventh month without any self-injury. My scars are fading little by little, and the beautiful weather here has given my skin a darker golden color which aids in hiding the injuries as well.

I've taken many proactive steps and am pleased with the results so far. I'll keep moving forward with a bright attitude.

It isn't to say there are times I'm caught off guard by undulations of heart-wrenching pain, but... the truth is - I have learned so much. I have nothing to complain about, and I'd be an abomination for not being gracious. I have a life, and a young one at that, with an infinite amount of possibilities and pleasures compressed into its fragile body. I understand I must have compassion move fluidly through me, and perform every action, form every thought under a law of boundless love. To not do so, would make me an impediment of the universe.

I'll finalize this entry with another sincerest of thank yous. The network of friendships here has been an incredible delight to partake in. I appreciate all of you.

Should any of you have a Facebook page and would like to keep in contact, this link leads to my profile: [link]

Good evening,
Alexandra